GrowthDay Journal Entry

​A moment that I really appreciated today was ...

Being able to join the Clubhouse room with Sonya Bethea. And she brought me onto the stage to speak, which I admit I was quite nervous to do so BUT, I overcame my fear of public speaking, and I got on stage & introduced myself to the room and told everyone who I am and what I do. I also opened up to the room about what I have been struggling with in my business. Surprisngly, I got a lot of great feedback from members in the group, and they all also gave me a lot of suggestions & tips to use in my Avon Business to help me further be a success. It was all very heartwarming & amazing how welcoming they all were. It was a really good feeling to be a part of the room & a part of the Clubhouse Community.

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​A situation or task I handled well today was ...

My girlfriend and I having a heated discussion about our relationship, which left me angry and enraged. However, I think that I handled the situation better than I thought I would. I meditated on the situation & did breathing exercises to calm myself down because my blood pressure shot up way high after the heated discussion. I was able to regulate my emotions & push out the negative thoughts I was having after the discussion.

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​Something I realized or learned today was ...

I realized that some people don't care about me the way I thought they did. I realized that some people will throw things in your face to make you feel bad & feel less of a person. I realized that people will use your flaws against you to their advantage. I also realized that love does NOT conquer all things. I realized that love is a burden, a heavy burden for me to carry around on my shoulders and that I need to lift that weight off of my shoulders & than I will be much happier with myself & with my life.

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​I could have made today even better if I ...

would have gotten up from my desk and moved around more, maybe exercised some. Also, if I would have paid more attention to my girlfriend as that is what she was seeking, more attention from me. Would have gotten up from my desk & did a couple loads of laundry & cleaned the house.

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​Something that could have helped me feel more connected to others today would have been ...

to answer all my e-mails and messages in a timely manner instead of waiting for hours to respond to them all. Also, maybe if I would have gotten out of the house today & went to see some friends.

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​If I was my own high-performance coach, I would tell myself this today ...

you stayed pretty cool, calm, and collective considering the discussion you & your girlfriend had today. If it was me, I would have blown a gasket & I would have probably broken up with her on the spot and been absolutely and completely done with her for good. I don't know how you do it & how you can handle the whole situation but you're a better man than I am.