Morning THoughts While Drinking coffee

We've got to start loving more than hating each other.

Together We Rise! #BLM #BLMMOVEMENT #LGBTQ+ We stand with you, we are stronger together!

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You know what I miss, I miss how happy you made me. I miss all of our memories, all of our good times and bad times we had with each other. I MISS YOU! And I wish things could be the same with us again and I'm hoping in the future that time could come again. I LOVE YOU!

Sometimes, I just wish I could read your mind to find out how you really feel about me. Because me, I feel like I have everything I have only ever wanted & dreamed of. I LOVE YOU!

​Look, I just want to remind you that I'm always here for you, and if you ever need to talk, you can always come to me. Because I really really care about you & I remember I promised you from day one that I will always be there for you. I LOVE YOU!!!

​When I met you, I had no idea you would become this important to me <3 And now I can't even imagine life without you, because you mean so much to me <3 I LOVE YOU!!!

 Why did I try so hard for you? Why did I treat you so good? Just to be treated like shit? You just dropped me like I was nothing, like I meant absolutely nothing to you.

Dear Best Friend,
I just want to thank you for always being there for me, and making me feel better during my worst times. And I want you to remember, I will always be there for you during your worst times, because you mean the absolute world to me. And, I AM TRULY BLESSED TO HAVE HAD YOU IN MY LIFE <3 or was until you dropped me like a hot potato & exited my life. Yeah, you called me to thank me for your Birthday Card but I know things between us will never ever be the same again. So I have to accept that fact and move on with my life instead of holding onto something that will never be again.

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I honestly don't even want a relationship anymore. 

I don't even want to talk or flirt anymore.

I give up.

​​You win girls.

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Nothing more dangerous than a person who healed themselves with the help of nobody. If you can rise up from the shit that they left you with, there's no mother fucker out there who can tell you shit. Speaking from experience. That's the truth.

When you really think about it, life...as much as you might want them to be, some people just ain't meant to be around forever. 

You know what my problem is, I think too much and I feel too deeply, and that's not good. Because it hurts me in the long run when I get too attached to someone, and than I am just left behind all heartbroken and sad. While they never cared or felt the same way that I did. That tears me apart. 

NOTE TO SELF:
Look, if someone is stupid enough to walk away from you, I know it's going to be really hard, but LET THEM GO. You deserve better, and they are going to regret it, because you're going to be the best thing they ever had.

It's so crazy, because on my worst days, I'll go from being happy to sad in seconds. I won't always like myself, and sometimes I'll assume you don't like me either...Trust me, I'll have good days, but on those bad days I'll just need reassurance, for you to tell me that you will be there for me on my hard days REGARDLESS!!!

Someone once told me, sometimes people hate you because the way other people love you. And that spoke to me, ya' know.

It's crazy, because sometimes I will feel really good for a few days; not just good but great, like I'm on top of the world, like I can do anything. But than I'll crash & I'll go back to being sad & feeling like I can't do anything anymore & that sucks & that tears me apart. Because when I'm doing good, something bad always happens to me.

It's sad how you can go from talking to someone non-stop to never speaking to them again in an instant. Like damn. We could have just stayed strangers.

Don't lie to an overthinker, because it'll kill them on the inside, and they will never be able to trust you or look at you the same EVER again. So don't do it to somebody you really care about. Unless you don't care about your relationship with them that much.

I am so tired of everything. I'm tired of this overthinking & anxiety that tends to ruin my relationships & friendships that I have in my life. And I'm tired of these thoughts that are probably just fake. Like for once I don't want to overthink & have anxiety, and just trust them because they are a different person. I'm sorry for whoever I have been like this to. I'm trying more than you can ever imagine, it's just hard when stuff gets the best of you. I'm tired of it, I REALLY AM!!!

NOTE TO SELF:
Just breathe, no matter what happens, you can handle it.

Why is it always the good people that don't feel good about themselves & are treated poorly that are actually the most caring & genuine person & have the most beautiful soul in the world.

I'm depressed. I'm tired of waking up every morning & wishing that I didn't. Yeah, I know I've got people that love me & care about me. But yet, I still feel alone.