Someday

​Someday the things that you currently don't understand will make sense. Someday the big things you've been dealing with won't seem so big anymore. Someday the doubts you have about yourself will be revealed as false. Someday you'll see that the things you worry about didn't matter at all. Someday you'll see the road before you wasn't something you had to walk flawlessly. But rather something you had to trust and believe in. Someday you'll look in the mirror and see that you had it in you the entire time. That there was nothing you needed or should have been hoping for. Yeah someday. Someday that will all be true. But what about somedays from the past. I remember years ago thinking someday I would venture out into the world. Someday I'd speak my mind. Someday I would start my own business. I would surround myself with people who believed in what I believe. Someday I'd make a little more money. Have a little more time to do what I love. Someday I'd have all that and as I look around, I realize it looks a lot like someday. But guess what as we grow so do our somedays. It's a chase that never ends. There's always something more. There's always something bigger and better and the problem is not the ambition. The problem is forgetting that in so many ways you've dreamt of being where you stand right now. You have arrived. You're not the same person that 10 years ago was throwin somedays out into the universe. No, you have grown. You have learned. You have evolved. Why does this matter? It matters because without acknowledging how far you've come; you cannot acquire the strength needed to go where you must go. When you don't feel good enough it's often because you haven't looked over your shoulder and opened your eyes. The evidence is right there. It's hiding in plain sight. There's proof that you've been there. That you've faced demons and conquered them. Endured your battles and overcame. You did that and at one point not that long ago you couldn't say that you had you weren't yet that person, but things are different now. What you have today was once only that hopeful someday it was a fleeting thought. It had no merit and no value, yet you brought it to life. Look what you've done. Understand how far you've come. How you ran when you could, you walked when it was possible, you crawled when you had to. And continued on to arrive at a someday that is right now. You my friend are a maker of things unseen. An architect of tomorrows and somedays so don't you dare don't you ever entertain the delusion that this gift suddenly stops now. Suddenly the burden is too much. The mountain is too tall. What you do is overcome, that is who you are. And you've done it for you. You've done it for the ones you love. And in some cases, the ones who didn't even understand. But you kept marching though the fires of hell to turn somedays into right nows. And I get that the road before you is uncertain. There's no way to know exactly how life will unfold. But that's besides the point. A bird can't predict every gust of wind it's going to encounter. It spreads its wings takes off and adapts because it can. Because it always has. Because that's what it does. I'm not advocating that you should have all the answers no I'm suggesting that you trust yourself to find hem to move forward into the haze that surrounds you. To make sense of the seemingly illogical. Bring about reality from the make believe. Someday you will have what you're aiming for. But here's to never letting a today go by. Without realizing that you are always living out a someday from your past. You are always arriving and leaving simultaneously the accomplished and the student crossing the finish line and on the starting block with another race around the corner. Another chance to stretch your legs and reach for the heavens. If you ever forget that I ask that you find it within yourself to look over your shoulder to remember what you once asked for. And to appreciate the journey that you have undertaken. You did that. Now onward you go. You have more somedays to bring to life.